I was talking to my sister on the phone, needing a sounding board. Lately, I've had all these hopes and dreams bubbling up in my brain. I felt unsettled because there's so much I want to do in life. My "seasons" are all out of kilter. Obviously, now is not the time to conquer the world...I still haven't mastered doing my laundry, folding it, AND putting it away all in the same day. However, I felt like by the time it was my season for some of my dreams, I might be a little "too seasoned" (meaning: sipping jello through a straw in a nursing home) to make a difference the way I imagined. Sometimes I get so ahead of myself with what I want to do, that I forget God has a path for me, and if followed, will lead to more fulfillment than I could ever dream-up for myself.
With these thoughts coursing through my brain, I picked up a book this morning. It was one of those moments when the pages fall open in just the right place. Here's what it said,
It is easy in the often routine and occasionally dull exercise of everyday life to long for something more exciting and stimulating. . . . Submerged hopes and desires bubble to the surface, and feelings of longing may tug at our hearts. . . . There is nothing inherently wrong with hopes and dreams and wishes. They should be pursued to their reasonable ends. But there comes a time in our reverie when it may be vital to turn and almost run to the arms of someone real that will bring us back to the ground.
It is wonderful to see people who have a dream and go for it with passion , confidence, and unwavering determination. Tremendous personal growth and meaningful contribution can be realized by those who are willing to give the extra effort or walk the narrow path that is dictated by their dreams. But the most successful of these also realize that they may be limited by vows and restrained by responsibilities that are not subject to honest abandonment.
I looked up to heaven and thought, yep, that was clear enough for me. Noted. My sister advised me to use wisdom. I said to her, "Well, it's easy to be wise in my every-day life, it's harder when it comes to my dreams." Sometimes, my journey of "becoming" feels like pretty hard work. I have a lot of rough edges just waiting to be smoothed.